How did I not know? How did I miss the signs? How did I not notice? Was there not a change in her voice? Did she not lose the twinkle in her eye? How could I not see the torment she was suffering inside? Was I so absorbed in my own life? Fooled by her … Continue reading A Mother’s Anxiety
The Coexist Project spawned from an idea I had about three years ago. I was looking at how mainstream street and sportswear has become incorporated in our day to day clothing. I thought instead of seeing a logo purely promoting the brand, why not use the branding to help promote a positive universal message? Since … Continue reading COEXIST
Helena Napal is an emerging artist currently exploring painting and sculpture. Through her work Helena seeks to better understand sexuality and identity as well as to respond to mental health struggles. Her experiences of reproductive health issues and trauma fuel her passion to reclaim her power and autonomy by embracing adversity and creating in the … Continue reading Helena Nepal
Slowly raising our gaze Heart lowers sharp As we meet A reflection we forgot we knew Dark, off black Bluish lipped Beady red eyes Ill equipped To face its own dark realities Uncertainly We move forward Don’t worry Worried? Worry faster lock the ports ? the borders ? Certainly your door though Inwardly seeking For … Continue reading H O’Neill
Too much pressure Too much time Too much uncertainty Too much to climb . Too many emotions Not enough space A clogged up brain With only time to waste . Deeply stored frustrations New triggers to entice Past projections fog Is it so hard to just be nice? . With so much confusion Leaving it … Continue reading Lock-down.
When every morning feels like an inner trial of strength and it takes an uncertain number of hours or days to confront the feelings, the ambivalence of one's own emotional state is often a reason that stands in the way. The British neo-folk songwriter uses this confusing mixture of emotions to draw new courage from … Continue reading SOBI
Pressure builds Reality fades Brain clogged up Nothing left to gain . A continuous flow Of subliminal messages Never enough Living up to external images . Taking on more than what is Frantic Exhausted The future takes hold Controlled Haunted . Expectations win Reality takes a seat No time to think Heart skips a beat … Continue reading Stressed.
What does it really mean? I grew up in a small sized society, completely patriarchal, (falsely) religious. I grew up in a normal family, went to school and university, been a good friend, partner, daughter, employee. I did everything right. How come though, that I found myself turning 30 feeling miserable? In my whole life … Continue reading Self Ownership
Tomorrow, I will be released from the psychiatric hospital. I’ve been here a month, facing down my demons and learning how to rebuild a life torn apart by a brain that doesn’t work quite as it should. My diagnosis is printed, stamped, and signed — the only benchmarks that matter in making something offiziell here in Germany. … Continue reading Invisible Illness
- Hello you, how have you been feeling lately? - Hm . . I suppose I'm feeling safe in my own boundaries, not trying to be or look different to how I feel in any moment; trying to think nice thoughts about my weaknesses or insecurities, making sure I am treating my body well too. … Continue reading Sensing Acceptance
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