A Mother’s Anxiety

How did I not know? How did I miss the signs? How did I not notice? Was there not a change in her voice? Did she not lose the twinkle in her eye? How could I not see the torment she was suffering inside? Was I so absorbed in my own life? Fooled by her … Continue reading A Mother’s Anxiety

Self-Doubt; Sit With Me.

Evil, sly, existence Living somewhere within Your sludge deep inside of me Navigating my path with your sins. So self righteous and destructive Such a nightmare to endure I start to create, then somehow, end up a pathetic pile on the floor. Release me from your grips Those claws imbedded in my brain Set me … Continue reading Self-Doubt; Sit With Me.

Lock-down.

Too much pressure Too much time Too much uncertainty Too much to climb . Too many emotions Not enough space  A clogged up brain With only time to waste  . Deeply stored frustrations New triggers to entice Past projections fog Is it so hard to just be nice? . With so much confusion  Leaving it … Continue reading Lock-down.

Stressed.

Pressure builds  Reality fades Brain clogged up  Nothing left to gain  . A continuous flow Of subliminal messages Never enough  Living up to external images . Taking on more than what is Frantic Exhausted The future takes hold Controlled  Haunted  . Expectations win Reality takes a seat No time to think  Heart skips a beat … Continue reading Stressed.

The Control Freak Inside

Control. The deceptive truth wandering eyes an elusive spook. . Unaware of the threat to you and your sanity. with a grasp so tight hoping to be released from its tyranny . Whilst only getting deeper falling into its trap, A juxtaposed mind Neither this, neither that . A new world imagined due to a … Continue reading The Control Freak Inside