Polycystic ovary syndrome

PCOS, whats that? they chime My periods are irregular, they never show up on time. PCOS? they say, ‘another made up condition’. An excuse to be overweight, another denial mission. My hormones are out of whack, I try to explain, and when I do menstruate it’s excruciating pain. PCOS is ‘just cysts’ or so they … Continue reading Polycystic ovary syndrome

Casual Terror.

Trapped inside, controlled morally postponed. I wait.   Not going out, The fear creating doubt, I resist, it grows. I wait.   Letting go of it all trusting in the uncomfortable fall, to freedom. I wait.   Open your mind, your heart and your soul, watch, exposed as life can now unfold.   Now, able … Continue reading Casual Terror.

Meditation Snippet no.6 – Visualisation

Visualisations in meditation are often a really useful way of inviting in and embodying new perspectives, feelings and emotions. It can help lighten your load by seeing how the power of your imagination and thoughts can change how you feel at that very moment. It gives you that motivation to change your thoughts when you … Continue reading Meditation Snippet no.6 – Visualisation

Anxiety

Anxiety, whether you like it or not, is within us all. It has helped our species get to where we are today, signalling the flight or fight response, helping us avoid dangerous and deadly situations. But it seems today, quite often it doesn't serve such a useful purpose, with many of us terrified to get … Continue reading Anxiety

Vast Null

  I am currently reading the book “Women Who Run with the Wolves”, by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. It's a study; a collection of myths and stories of the wild woman archetype. The fictional stories with vivid descriptions of unfolding experiences; making the book quite heavy to digest. Going through one story a week gives enough … Continue reading Vast Null

Beth Redwood Pain

Angry. Upset. Confused. Stressed. Anxious. Fraudulent. I was spinning. So I went to hobby craft, picked up the biggest canvas I could find along with some paints. Drove home. Turned up the music. Listened to my soul. And started painting. I let go. I released. I was free. Love makes you enter some of the … Continue reading Beth Redwood Pain

Don’t know why

Sometimes You don’t know how warm it gets inside the cage between the ribs, frantic heatwaves. Not spreading around and not escaping out no shining, but just burning. The lust, the pain you don’t know to which root these branches belong to, can’t trace down, hanging in space İ don’t know what it means to … Continue reading Don’t know why

Tidal Wave

I stood right on the shoreline. One day it’s going to hit me, this tidal wave. The pain will knock me off my feet, I will cry and scream and clutch. But when it finally hits me, that’s when I’ll be able to move on. I long for that wave to consume me so I … Continue reading Tidal Wave