Lost and Found

Carried with us into our futures Are our losses, They don’t fall behind. Kneading shaping and moulding us, Resting in the back of minds. Colour our perspective, Feed into our fears, Ever present, not selective, They demand of us our tears, And we will give them, if we are wise enough, And we need not … Continue reading Lost and Found

Invisible Illness

Tomorrow, I will be released from the psychiatric hospital. I’ve been here a month, facing down my demons and learning how to rebuild a life torn apart by a brain that doesn’t work quite as it should. My diagnosis is printed, stamped, and signed — the only benchmarks that matter in making something offiziell here in Germany. … Continue reading Invisible Illness

Sensing Acceptance

- Hello you, how have you been feeling lately? - Hm . . I suppose I'm feeling safe in my own boundaries, not trying to be or look different to how I feel in any moment; trying to think nice thoughts about my weaknesses or insecurities, making sure I am treating my body well too. … Continue reading Sensing Acceptance

Wacky Women

It was a fresh, blissful sunday afternoon, the streets of Berlin were quiet and peaceful; the invasive sounds of sirens had slowed down and the sun shined through the scattered clouds lighting up the faces below. Various women of all different ages and nationalities had gathered in an attempt to open up, understand and engage … Continue reading Wacky Women

I Am Enough.

Some days the pink hue of my cheeks makes me want to tear my skin from my face, screaming. . Others, it’s a glowing reminder that I am alive. . Some days the wild wave of my hair makes me wish I could be anybody, anybody else. . Others, I shake it free and let … Continue reading I Am Enough.

Dermatillomania – Skin Picking disorder

pick pick pick an obsessive attack momentary freeze, no looking back. . Whilst I ruin my face neck and back. Others judgments follow; what on earth is that? . Look at what you've done You'll ruin your face You once looked so pretty Now its an absolute disgrace . Ashamed Anxious Craving the release letting … Continue reading Dermatillomania – Skin Picking disorder

Dried Up

The same beautiful patterns The same mesmerising bullshit. . The same honest words The same cruel tongue. The same caring nature The same judgmental punishment. . The same happy vibes The same moody exterior. . The same passionate touch The same selfish needs. . A window once closed has now sprung open My heart still … Continue reading Dried Up

Compromise

Compromise is a wonderful thing Just think of all the peace it brings . You're at each others throats all day With no one wanting to give way. . You are right; they are wrong The argument is oh so long! . Yet with thought and consideration You can get past this situation. . Listen … Continue reading Compromise

The Control Freak Inside

Control. The deceptive truth wandering eyes an elusive spook. . Unaware of the threat to you and your sanity. with a grasp so tight hoping to be released from its tyranny . Whilst only getting deeper falling into its trap, A juxtaposed mind Neither this, neither that . A new world imagined due to a … Continue reading The Control Freak Inside

Polycystic ovary syndrome

PCOS, whats that? they chime My periods are irregular, they never show up on time. PCOS? they say, ‘another made up condition’. An excuse to be overweight, another denial mission. My hormones are out of whack, I try to explain, and when I do menstruate it’s excruciating pain. PCOS is ‘just cysts’ or so they … Continue reading Polycystic ovary syndrome